Transplant

 

Seven or eight pumps ought to do it. Wait, ‘go to ten’ my conscious whispers, it’s an armadillo after all. The bastards armor must be taken into consideration. It’s the middle of June and it is hotter than the latest celebrity sex scandal. The counterfeit white wicker chair I am sitting on is damp from the day’s record humidity and the resulting condensation has seeped right through to my ass but I can’t move, won’t move. There’s a rustle in the brush just beyond our black aluminum fence. Fences in Florida are a must, especially if you back to a swamp like we do.  Keeps the critters out, well at least the ones that could snatch up a Pekingese. Again, I hear something move, snapping twigs. It’s him. I can smell him. Wait, no, nevermind, that’s me. First summer here I learned right quick that like it or not I was going to sweat, a lot. Thankfully, I perspire like a prepubescent 6th grader, so it’s tolerable. The rustle returns. My eyes, strained as the last few moments of the day begin to chase away the sun. I can’t see anything, the tall grass sways, requesting my attention. My upper lip is beaded with unattractive sudor.  I wipe my sweaty palms dry against the front of my army green Salt Life t-shirt. The logo is beginning to wear thin I notice, I adjust my firearm.

The hubby is out of town. I pride myself in doing things like this when he’s gone. Tackling “manly” jobs in his absence gives me a sense of independence I guess.  I once rearranged all the furniture in our house.. Eight rooms, it was no easy task but I had help from the cats. They proudly jumped on every piece of furniture I attempted to move, adding the extra ten pounds per cat to the hundred-pound couch.  I have fixed cars, a leaking toilet, re-grouted showers, laid mulch and painted whole rooms, so I can certainly rid my yard of an one precarious armadillo.

 

Did you know Walmart still sells BB guns? Yep. Thirty dollars for two boxes of pellets and the gun. No background check required. Thought about purchasing the snazzy camo carrying case but when I read the price of 14.99, I decided to pass. Besides, if its camouflaged I might not be able to find it when I need it. Yes, that was an attempt at a joke but let’s face it, Jeff Foxworthy I am not.

 

To think, just a few years ago, I was a midwestern girl hunting for deals at Ann Taylor Loft at Laurel Park Mall. Now, I am a southern gal lying in wait for an armadillo in my Callahan, Florida backyard. Both types of hunting require patience, neither require a permit.

 

The shuffle is within inches of the fence now.  Without preface, Al Pacino’s voice from Scarface slips into the silent part of my brain reserved for moments like these where dramatic scenes unfold of how I want things to go instead of the clumsy, chaotic way they probably will go. I observe the little bastard slide under the fence and head directly to the woodpile. I reckon he dug out that spot on his previous visit the night before when I sprayed him with the hose, which obviously, was ineffective.

 

The BB gun is pressed solid between my shoulder and jawline, moist from the heavy air. Finger on the trigger, I have visual of the intruder. Behind me, pushed against the window is my cat, she also has eyes on target. The frustration she feels about the glass separating her from her victim has her pacing the windowsill like a caged tiger. It occurs to me how much I admire her as she acts as my wingman. I feel a sudden pang of guilt for allowing my daughter to name her Waffles. Clearly, a name like Raven or Mystique would have been more suitable.

 

Currently the plan is to hold fire until he starts digging. If he’s occupied, I won’t be rushed.  Wait, what’s this? He’s brought a friend? Dusk has evaporated into night and despite the light of the full moon I am suddenly feeling anxious, oh and outnumbered because the son-of-a-bitch has brought what appears to be the whole family. Apparently, his mission was to slide under the fence undetected in what I would call a recon mission. Crafty creature.

 

Breathe. You can do this. Unlike the mind of the distracted armadillo, you are a cunning individual. Anyone able to convince a three-year-old that mommy’s sanitary napkins are best left under her bathroom sink rather than acting as Barbie beds, while simultaneously removing a sliver from a screaming seven-year-old son’s thumb, at dinner time, with the mother-in-law expected at any minute, can certainly handle a family of armadillos. I mean, hopefully.

 

Moving to plan B and re-adjusting my position on the patio to a more strategic locale just left of the fern, I begin to slowly execute my system of attack. I have one shot, one opportunity…how did I go from Al Pacino to Eminem?  Focus. Once I let off one round the rest will, no doubt, scatter. Take out the leader and the rest won’t return. Excellent strategy and if I wasn’t so busy trying to readjust the gun against my sweaty cheek to take aim, I would pat myself on the back. Plenty of time for that later when I am drinking my celebratory beer.

 

It dawns on me then how proud my dad would be, although it is just a BB gun. He is true hunter, uses a bow and is badass as dad’s go. Still, he might give me an “atta girl” slug to the shoulder.

Time’s ticking. I count them. One, two, three, four, five, damn-that’s a family alright. The leader of the pack, Mr. Recon, hasn’t moved far from his original spot near the woodpile so I take aim. His beady eyes fixed on his prey of grubs keeps him from knowing I exist. My arm is shaking, but only slightly and I squeeze the trigger, it’s way harder than I thought it was going to be but I suddenly change nationalities from German to Italian and whisper, “Say hello to my little friend” and let off the shot sending my shoulder against the chair and causing me to go slightly deaf in my right ear for about two seconds.

 

Don’t worry pal, I missed and then…all hell breaks loose.

 

Like balls on a bumper pool table, the five of them start bouncing off the fence line in what only could be described as blind chaos. Not one of them can manage their way back to the section of fence they had originally smuggled themselves through, crazy mammals! I am telling you here and now, if I would have managed to get the scene on video it would have gone so viral Jimmy Kimmel would have invited me to sit on his couch. It was nothing short of watching kids scramble for money the second they hear the ice cream truck enter the neighborhood six streets over. It was insane. All I could do was stare for what seemed like an hour but was probably more like five minutes as one by one, in full on survival mode, each family member slipped under the fence. As a bonus, every single dog in the neighborhood is now barking. Great, I have become “that neighbor”.

 

Behind me, Waffles shoots me a look of disappointment, her lower jaw quivering in unison with my right arm as the gun slips into the grass, “That’s right, run vermin, run!  Tell your friends danger lurks here!” I yell in dramatic fashion, as is my way. Both kids are now peering at me through the sliding glass door, the curtain panels waving as if to say goodbye to our visitors. My daughter, the one who is northern born but most definitely southern bred, is laughing. Not just a little either, hysterically. My son is shaking his head. “Mom, come back in. Let Dad do it when he gets home,” he shouts then adds, “You’re going to hurt yourself.” I throw him a “thanks pal” nod and reach down for the gun, feeling defeated.

 

Was I tougher when I lived in Michigan? Seems like it. I was more daring that’s for sure. I blame the heat, yeah, the heat. Couldn’t be my age, I mean, it’s probably my age. The mind is a tricky thing and I only wish it could have willed me to have better aim. Just wanted to accomplish this one thing while my husband was out of town. Reaffirm my individuality so to speak. Then it happens. The kids are pointing with muffled excitement for me too look back. He has returned!

With the grace of a seasoned hunter I silently retrieve the BB gun and line up the shot. Thankfully, the neighbors flood light flips on and is hitting the lawn just right, its golden beam not only illuminates the armadillo but causes him to freeze. With my confidence restored, I pull the trigger.

 

Click.

 

Not kaboom.

 

Click.

 

Damn, I forgot to pump the gun and as Mr. Recon scurries off, I believe I hear him laughing. Nope, it’s both kids. Pointing and laughing, hysterically.

 

Oh and Waffles, she didn’t acknowledge my existence for well over a week.

 

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Human Nature

The fires final ember

took flight

Sizzling, soaring

With purpose

a goal

To get up, into the current

away

Abandoning its home

Desperate to matter

To someone

Anyone

Watching

Sylvia

“I would like to be everyone, a cripple, a dying man, a whore, and then come back to write about my thoughts, my emotions, as that person. But I am not omniscient. I have to live my life, and it is the only one I’ll ever have.”

Almost Livin’ Almost Dyin’

Almost Livin’ Almost Dyin’

BY JUAN FELIPE HERRERA

for all the dead

& hear my streets

with ragged beats & the beats

are too beat to live so the graves push out with

hands that cannot touch the makers of light & the

sun flames down through the roofs & the roots that slide

to one side & the whistlin’ fires of the cops & the cops

in the shops do what they gotta do & your body’s

on the fence & your ID’s in the air & the shots

get fired & the gas in the face & the tanks

on your blood & the innocence all around & the

spillin’ & the grillin’ & the grinnin’ & the game of Race

no one wanted & the same every day so U fire &

eat the smoke thru your long bones & the short mace

& the day? This last sweet Swisher day that turns to love

& no one knows how it came or what it is or what it says

or what it was or what for or from what gate

is it open is it locked can U pull it back to your life

filled with bitter juice & demon angel eyes even though

you pray & pray mama says you gotta sing she says

you got wings but from what skies from where could

they rise what are the things the no-things called love

how can its power be fixed or grasped so the beats

keep on blowin’ keep on flyin’ & the moon tracks your bed

where you are alone or maybe dead & the truth

carves you carves you & calls you back still alive

cry cry the candles by the last four trees still soaked

in Michael Brown red and Officer Liu red and

Officer Ramos red and Eric Garner whose

last words were not words they were just breath

askin’ for breath they were just burnin’ like me like

we are all still burnin’ can you hear me

can you can you feel me swaggin’ tall & driving low &

talkin’ fine & hollerin’ from my corner crime & fryin’

against the wall

almost livin’ almost dyin’

almost livin’ almost dyin’

My 25th

Committed to writing more this year! A good start is my new journal, a gift from my daughter. This begins my 25th year of keeping a journal. An accomplishment I am very proud of! #StartSomethingWonderful